Many years ago I had a client, a woman who was in her Saturn return, and in a difficult karmic relationship with her partner. She was feeling a sense of heaviness, and also feeling lack of clarity and uncertainty; but she was still in the middle of the relationship’s river path and karmic impulses were still strong in their flow. The natural untangling hadn’t happened yet. So I told her to start weaving.
And so she began. She weaved and weaved, and after three months she had woven a wool blanket which to this day today still serves those who need its warmth.
What had been transpiring during her three months of weaving was that her relationship with this man had naturally come to an end. Any end will take its time to heal, but she shared how she had made the decision to end the relationship with a new found clarity that had come upon her one day, and how after the separation, as hard as it was, and as uncertain as her path ahead felt, she had felt as if a burden had finally lifted off her shoulders. She had felt deep release, a deep peace in her heart and she had peace and calm that it was the right decision.
A year later, she shared with me how her life had completely changed in a positive and meaningful way, and how happy and in the right place she was feeling. In that year she had been focusing on healing, harmony and inner work, deepening her intuition and strengthening her spiritual core, being more mindful and self reflective in the way she’d make choices and turning challenges into learning opportunities.
One of the best things that she ever did was that she never spoke badly of him, and recognized how much she learned and grew from their shared experience. When we speak badly of our “exes”, we essentially keep energetically bound to that, and we may not be able to actually deepen nor evolve from the wisdom we’ve been offered.
She had also started working as a volunteer in a nursing home, and was feeling like she was making a difference with the elderly, which filled her life with purpose, joy and meaning. Indeed, she had stepped on her beautiful North Node path with courage, dedication, and grace.
This is not an easy thing to do – because most people only step into their North Node after the age of 42, and some may never fully do even after that. Time goes by, the years go by, and whether it was lack of confidence, self development, or limitations, whether external or internal, whether real or perceived, or whether it was the extra bit of encouragement that we didn’t receive, or support, or just a lot of inner conditioning and behavioural patterns that skewed our vision, we may not always step onto our full potential in this life. This is where astrology may be so helpful, because it can give us the insights towards our North Node, and then we can use our efforts and do the work needed for it.
Through the simple act of weaving she essentially weaved herself out of the trappings of her mind, and weaved in a clarity, a spiritual restart in a way. She unheld her hands from karmic wheels turning in cycles no longer needed, and used her hands to make more conscious choices of open heart and clarity of mind.
Grace is how we unhold from the karmic wheels; and through the art of weaving, we see our hands work in dedication, grace, devotion, gentleness and patience of rhythm. We weave into ourselves these qualities and the path reveals itself to us more naturally. The continuation of the threads, and the integrity of the threads, one after the other, is a devotion towards a spiritual maturity. Because devotion is the veil through which awareness shows its beautiful face.
The first years of our life are usually highly karmic, as they often relate to our past. In childhood especially we may be feeling strongly pulled towards certain interests, hobbies, passions, people, friends; on the playground and in kinder garden we may feel an immediate pull towards some friends, immediate repulsion and even disgust towards others, and we may even get into fight with some. We are untangling threads.
Until the age of 21 we are mostly tied to the past and playing out our South Node, giving life to our past life unfulfilled desires also. It is also a karmic time and connections with people will feel powerful, fated and as if impossible to forget. Some may be great, others not so great, but we are just settling ourselves into harmony.
The Saturn return, around the age of 30 will mark an important beginning or initiation towards our spiritual maturity, because this is when quite a few karmic things may surface to ask us to reflect on our sense of maturity, responsibility and conscious decision making. If we are able to balance out things and be spiritually guided and walk the path of self awareness we may even enter onto our North Node path in our mid 30s when Saturn matures. Naturally, our North Node path will begin to reveal itself more clearly after the age of 42, a new creative phase may begin at that time and we may see the beginnings of the fruition if we have already been working on it prior.
Between the ages of 21-42 approximately, we are in a phase of being the apprentice. Our North Node is like a sculptor, an artist, a creator of something new – and as each new thing we need to go through a learning period. Each artist knows we may make mistakes along the way, but we are learning, evolving, and learning through our efforts. The North Node is the new we will shape in this life, but this new is intimately tied to our South Node and spiritual core also; because the South Node is something that deeply roots within us. This is why building a strong spiritual core helps our North Node also.
Many people find that suddenly when they step on their North Node they may end up doing something completely different or unexpected, though for some people it’s been something they’ve been feeling called to since childhood, so it just needed its right time to be activated. Some people may change careers completely, they may be interested in something they’ve never been interested in before, or they may finally come full circle to their childhood gut feelings and inner knowings. The North Node will reveal itself to people in its unique way depending on where it resides in their chart.
But nonetheless, the North Node is an energy, a doorway, that we can open with a lot of courage and then we need to do the work, put in the effort – which is why the apprenticeship is important, and letting go our conditioned sense of self or ego is important also, because we need to go into the wild unknown territories with our North Node.
Regardless of where your North Node resides, the way to reach it is the 9th house, which is the house of dharma and our higher self. This is why the dharma chart is the divisional 9th chart, also known as the Navamsa, which shows our higher path if we choose to step into our soul’s calling. The 9th house is developed through our spiritual development.
What looks at the 9th house directly is the 3rd house – which is the house of our soul’s courage, self efforts and free will. It is the house of what we do with our hands and free will. It rules weaving, writing, painting, moving, traveling – everything that moves our body. It shows our courage, discipline, intelligence and willingness to put in the work; and it also rules our talents and gifts and skills. It is the most creative house actually, and in the old days it was called the Moon’s temple of the Priestesses, into which they developed their inner worlds to reach their destiny through self development.
Now back to the weaving,
In many schools with curriculums that are more spiritually guided, we see the importance of handwork for the little children. This is purposeful. It serves to deprogram them. It serves to smoothen the karmic impulses, because weaving and all handwork are karmic works. It aligns with our hands and 3rd house, which then puts us into the apprenticeship of learning dedication, reverence, patience of rhythm. These are all qualities the North Node will ask of us if we choose to step onto its path.
And when the children are given these handworks early on, it is also helping their management of their South Node and karmic balancing. So in these schools, the teachers will often begin weaving or painting or building blocks, and sit amidst the children; they wouldn’t teach nor force the children to do these, they would just sit and do these. And whatever the children would feel drawn to, they will begin to mimic it. This gives them their free will to explore what they love, and then helps them with their karmic work and to clear their North Node when it’s time for it to appear in their life later on. These handworks and arts are also crucial for their development overall, and all the qualities they will be developing through them.
Weaving is a meditative act, and is deeply spiritual in its nature. We weave out old ways of thinking, and we weave in the new ways. There is serenity that begins forming, and a sense of deep acceptance – and we are essentially grounding ourselves while also conceptualizing our new birth and incarnation. We are entering into our new rhythm of this life – with our hands now, our body now, our mind now, our breath now, our movement now.
The weaving gives you a kind of a spiritual restart, especially towards your North Node.
You weave out the outdated and no longer serving you thoughts and patterns; and you weave in the new ways of thinking and conceptualizing for this incarnation. You weave yourself into a calmness and grounding, moving your hands and your mind follows, moving yourself into faith of your hands and grace follows. Your focus is now on something outside of your own mind, and into the workings.
And this is what happened to my client. She weaved in a new spiritual restart to her life. There’s no magic here, no trick here, no manifesting or intentions or whatevers. She isn’t weaving herself new karmas of negative thoughts or intentions towards other people, no; she is just focusing on the art of weaving, on the power of her hands and focus and clarity of mind. This is a natural path and flow, because this is creation itself.
When that karmic relationship was overdue its date, she recognized this and unheld her hands from the karmic wheels, so that she doesn’t perpetuate it and keep herself in cycles no longer even needed. She unheld her hands from the karmic wheels with grace, and she took her hands to weave her own path ahead.
She settled into the peace and the flow of the river, while clearing out her mind, and all took its natural unfolding. Her clarity of sight then allowed her to see her situations clearly, and what she needed to do with her choice of will, and with the courage of her soul she looked towards her North Star, her North Node. Surely its lands are wild and unknown, but she had the skills and faith to step onto it, and it revealed itself to her.
We weave ourselves and our lives each day. Separate strands and threads, one after one, some escape us and need to be woven again; some are done and some undone, sometimes with patience, and often with hope, or because we just need to do them.
Openings and closings yet closings only to then begin again and move through something else; and some need to be anchored by our own personal simple ordinary habits that hold us together. And all, under the constant beat of our heart; and all, with kindness and patience of rhythm.
Making tea, cleaning the house, walking outside in the park, hugging our loved one, and playing and creating and dreaming and doing – and faith in found in our doing, and grace is found in our doing. Weaving is a contemplative practice, which shows us the spaces where all can be both closed and open, but the path is organic and natural, and has its order of unfolding.
Spirituality too is not something just on the side, or only sometimes – it is an always, and it is meant to be embodied in our every day actions, because we are not here to “become” spiritual, we already are spiritual beings, and we need to awaken and apply our spiritual wisdom towards our human relationships and our every day actions.
The spiritual nature of weaving is that it shifts the focus inward – because it is you weaving your own self into clarity; seeing what within you is arising, your own interworkings, untanglings, and shedding light of clarity within from which you’ll see clearer externally also.
The act of weaving also aligns you the power of your own ability to create and weave, and helps to decondition you from feelings of powerlessness and limitations. Nothing trumps free will, nothing is more powerful than your free will – and your free will is now. But the quality of that free will, of the water you pour into your rivers, is directly correlated to your level of self awareness; and this is why self development and inner work are so important.
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Cover art by Pierre-Auguste Renoir, circa 1875.
